Possible Return?

So he says that he's going to try and come back this weekend or the next couple weeks. I dont know if its true or not. I know i do wish that mother fucker was here but then school is going so much better for me now that im able to focus on just that. And he is a distraction whether in mexico and me staying on the phone to talk to him instead of doing my studies, or im sure when hes here hell be a distraction for me again. But im not gonna telll him that and say don't come back. But i wonder what he's gonna do here? No job no car either.

See i told u

I cant stop staring at this picture of him he sent while we were talking on facebook. Messenger. When i look at him i fall in love . but then i feel that stupid saddness cuz hes gone. I wonder if its possible for someone to feel another persons pain. I think it is if they love them deeply.  I wonder if he loves me like that. I know if he did he would be hurting just as much if not more than me. And trying to find anyway to get in contact with me or even come back to me. Well thats how my love is.

Same ol familiar pain.

I hate that heavy tight painful lump you get when you're trying your hardest to keep it together. Trying not to break down and just cry. Man i really liked him and i really wanted to keep him. He made me feel loved and wanted. And i want that back. I want to scream and cry out to give it back to me! I deserve it ,i want it!.