Back again..

I used the needing a ride technique to get a response from Ass hole. It worked.But he asked if I wanted to kick it. I said yes, and now I'm here, looking at the air mattress on the floor, remembering calling him really this morning like 4am, and him telling me he's "RESTING" 
yeah with her .  Yes totally dissed by this  mother fucker.  I know he fucked her, he already did before, so why not again? I just feel it in my bones. 
But, he doesn't actually think I'm gonna spend the night with him, or even believe him when he says he was in the garage the whole time.

At the casino

It's not fun gambling with someone, even just watching then gamble when they don't know when to quit. Over a thousand, and my friend have out all back and then some. And you can't stop her. She can't stop. It s just sucky n

I'm not hurt

I'm more so offended, and insulted cuz I was just used again. I hate being used, and lately it's been happening

Want Me back?

Hello wants me back,I don't think so.  He tries to say to this home less chick that I'm not his ex anymore, and he looks at me and says right? Ii don't say anything, fuck you bobot.

He runs off somewhere with her, and now he's in hisn room with her.  Btw she already told me she sleepy with him.
That's WHY I SAY NO!! Fuck you bobot

Revisit the wretched valley

Of course I had to hang out with bobot, I saved him for almost last. I blatantly explained to him that I did didnt come for any intimacy, I came just as a friend to hang for a bit.
But of course he is still trying to get ing my pants. When I first rejected him he actually got mad, raised his hand, but caught himself, snd then said well then just fuck it bounce. I was about to but  he stopped me. And he's just being his usual friendliness, but he's throwing in even asking for my opinions, and asking me what I wanted him to do. Uhh huh.. the final blue after he's managed to seduce me into kissing him, he had the nerve to ask me if I still loved him, seriously, and he admitted it Ted he knows that I do.Then he had the audacity to yell me that he loves me, and he wants top be with Just me, and how he saves himself for me, and now he's pulled out THE BIG CARD, and stated that he wants me back. He wants to be with me again. I gently reminded him that , no, he doesn't really want that, and we can get back  together when he's ready, and when he's ready to be with just one person.

I wanted to cry when I was hearing all this fucking insulting bull shit he's spitting at me. I mean he really thinks I'll call for it and give it up to him. WTF!? 

He asked me what I wanted him to do , and u thought to myself, I want him to be fucking REAL!!! For once in his life,see himself and his future and what he wants for himself. He couldnt possibly want the same shit he has everyday right now, what he wants forever?!?! I had hoped that I. Was able to show him-_- give him a taste of what a real relationship feels like. And hopefully he liked it and wanted more. Or in this case want it back. After he felt my absence he would feel what he was lacking, and possibly needed.

But I'm not a fucking idiot, and I'm not new to his bull shit, and I'm not falling for it. Even if I want it too, I have my dignity, and he needs to learn that I'm not like those tweaker bitches and he can't have it like that with me.